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The Question of Being Too Much

Am I too much?

It was a fear that popped up out of no where. A concern that annoyed me until became a realisation that plagued on all of my insecurities.

I have a previous post titled “Enough”, published sometime last year, and that had been written in celebration of the fact that the person that you are should be enough for the people around you and more importantly, to yourself.

But is there such a thing as being too much? Caring too deeply? Feeling too strongly?

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And does that scare people away? And if it scares them away, does that mean that they were never meant to be in your life in the first place? Or is that just another lie that we have been conditioned to tell ourselves, in order to shed the blame from ourselves?

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Lover’s Hate

“Stronger than Lover’s Love is Lover’s hate. Incurable, in each, the wounds they make.”

― Euripides, Medea

I didn’t believe it when I was told that there was a thin line between love and hate. I never understood how trully blurred the lines of love and hate were and the many shades of grey that lay in between those two emotions. And then I came across Euripides’ quote (on the door of my wardrobe, of course) and I was forced to ponder on the verity of his words.

 

Love-  passionate, and by definition, abstract.

What does it mean to love someone? To love another human being means the willingness to do anything for that person, regardless of your own personal happiness. You  wish them the best in everything that they do, even if it means leaving you behind.

It is an abstract thing and yet it’s  tangible effects are seen around us every single day- in the way we treat each other, our careers, and our friendships. We pour our all into these things-our time, our energy, our money, our emotions and our vulnerabilities.

We trust those that we love to never betray us because they have seen us for who we are and they have stayed. We put our energy into the things that we love in the hope that they will bring us success and we treat those around us with respect because we would like them to treat us in the same regard, with the same level of respect.

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2017- And That’s That

And so 2017 has come to an end. I was under so much pressure to write something to sum up the whole year. In fact, it was stressing me out so much that I nearly decided that I wouldn’t bother anymore.

What’s in a year anyway? A day? An hour? A minute? What is actually changing?

Nothing.

The 1st of January 2018 is just another day in the grand scheme of things. But to many, it is another day that signifies so much more.

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So many resolutions made already and so many of them broken before the new year has even started.

I am still amazed at how fast it all flew. Scrolling through my social media, I can see that it is of a general consensus that 2017 was the worst and best year simultaneously.

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Betrayal

The worse thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies.

It comes from people that are deeply rooted in your belief system, people that you have exposed your soul to and saw a reflection of yourself in.

It comes from those that you trust, the ones that you swear would never harm you on purpose or play with your dreams.

It comes from the people who you never expect it from.

It comes from those people that you love and who claim to love you back. It doesn’t necessarily have to come from a romantic relationship either. It could be betrayal from a family member or perhaps a close friend.

This betrayal hurts so much because at the end of the day, who knows you better than those who you have bared your very being to?

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Poisons Like Grudges

One of the most painful and destructive emotions in the human spectrum is holding a  grudge that will not go away.

It always starts out small- someone did something to offend you. That small knot forms in your stomach but decided to let it slide.

Or maybe you want to talk about it but because of one reason or the other, you can’t.

So you bottle it in, like a pungent poison and refuse to bring it up, in the hopes that you will get over it eventually.

But like a pungent poison, it eats into your soul until you can no longer ignore it. Soon everything that person does irritates you, you run out of things to talk to them about because your anger towards them gets in the way, you don’t want to be around them because their very presence reminds you of everything that they have ever done to you and you just continue to dwell on it.

It sits heavy on your chest day in and day out.

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The African Condition

A bit out of the norm and I apologise in advance if I manage to offend anyone. The news that hit the world recently dug such a hole in my heart that I had to say something. The time to complain is over. The time to blame has gone by. Now is the time to act, to make a change so that future becomes a brighter and more equal one.

So it happened again. The world shocked me. I didn’t think that it was possible anymore for humans to sink any lower but once again, like the universe likes to do once every while, it reminded me that we were nothing but a blemish on the surface of the Earth. We are nothing but parasites- intent on using the earth’s resources but unwilling to face the consequences that these actions entail. 

A bit harsh, I know but that is exactly how I feel on this fateful day.

In all honesty, the news about the slavery in Libya comes to me as no surprise. What shocked me the most was the fact that it was us Africans that were treating each other as such.

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A Tale of Peter and Jane

So, I’ve been quite disillusioned the last few weeks and I feel like that has played a factor in why my creative juices seem to have just dried up on me.

This was mostly due to the fact that I had applied for something that would have opened up a world of opportunities for me. I had been so hopeful, so optimistic, with an overwhelming feeling that things were finally going my way again, that the universe was finally aligning in my favour and things would just go right for once.

And then, like all things seem to want to do in my life, it all went left and that hope was brought crashing down and I couldn’t even be sad anymore. I was just angry. I was angry at the world. Angry at the people who had refused me this opportunity but most of all, I was just angry with myself.

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Real Neat Blogger Award + Sunshine Blogger Award!!!

Hi guys! So I’m back again to proclaim the fact that I am famous. I got nominated for the Real Neat Blogger Award as well as the Sunshine Blogger Award by Keda of My Vantage Point. It’s been a while since both nominations so I’ve decided to do both of them together because I’m amazing at multitasking!

Keda’s blog is one of my absolute favourite blogs and I delight in reading anything she has to say. She has this way of talking about serious and real issues in the lives of women in such a way that brings the point home but is also just so funny. Please check out her work! You will not regret it. I promise you.

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October 24

 

Yes. It’s that time of the year again. No, not Halloween, the other one. Alright fine I’ll just tell you. Cue drum roll…..It’s my birthday. I know.

How could not know?

It’s okay, I forgive you.

But jokes aside, I wanted to share with you guys 22 things that I have learnt in my 22 years on planet Earth. As in, I knew these when I was 21 yesterday too but that doesn’t count anymore. It’s hard to believe that so much time has passed but I am thankful for every second, minute, hour, day…okay, I think you get the point.

So what have I learnt?

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