And so 2017 has come to an end. I was under so much pressure to write something to sum up the whole year. In fact, it was stressing me out so much that I nearly decided that I wouldn’t bother anymore.
What’s in a year anyway? A day? An hour? A minute? What is actually changing?
The 1st of January 2018 is just another day in the grand scheme of things. But to many, it is another day that signifies so much more.
So many resolutions made already and so many of them broken before the new year has even started.
I am still amazed at how fast it all flew. Scrolling through my social media, I can see that it is of a general consensus that 2017 was the worst and best year simultaneously.
It was truly a confusing year for many- there really was no in between. Everything that happened, happened at its extreme. You were either completely in love or completely heart broken. You were either doing well in college or failing miserably.
So many experiences were had and so many lessons were learnt and had to be learnt again. And there were so many different kinds of tears. Tears of joy, tears of regret, tears of sadness, tears of nostalgia. I know I cried them all. There were times that I cried just because there was nothing else to do. But I laughed more than ever as well.
It’s crazy to see how much hope the people around me are putting on this new year. For many, 2018 seems to signify the beginning of a new era- there is a sense of optimism, people hoping for better grades, better work life, better jobs, better relationships.
So many of us are ready to close the door on 2017.
2017 was a long year.
So much happened and I still sometimes find myself reminiscing back on a moment, placing it a few years back before I take a pause and realise that it all happened in 2017.
I grew this year. I grew to realise my worth. I grew to see that not everyone would like me and that not everyone should. I’m still in the process of learning how to put myself first but like they say, Rome wasn’t built in a day and it was definitely not built in a year. The person that you are is an ever changing, ever growing thing that you must continue to work on.
I grew to learn forgiveness.
I learnt that a big group of friends does not necessarily mean that you are loved. People can love you for the energy that you bring to the table, but it doesn’t mean that they will reciprocate it and when energy is not reciprocated, you will find yourself feeling drained and empty.
It has been another eye-opening year. Not everyone is kind like you and you must not expect the same from the rest of the world. The most you can do is to be the best person that can be, regardless of your faults and your weaknesses. We are all humans at the end of the day and as long as you do your best then you have no one to answer to.
I learnt to judge less. Everyone has a story, a reason that they do the things that they do. And if you have not walked in their shoes or lived through their experiences, then you have no right to judge. It will be hard but I’m coming to terms with the fact that anything worth having will never come easy.
I learnt the necessity of being alone but not feeling alone. Enjoying your own company. The importance of knowing yourself. Knowing who you are because there will be times when you will lose yourself a bit in the confusion of life. But if you have a strong sense of who you are or the kind of person you want to be, then there will always be a light in the darkness.
No matter how bad the year was, I can’t ignore the fact that everything that happened, in its entirety, was also necessary! Because once again, I am thankful for the person that I am right now.
Not perfect, still learning, still growing and still me.
I see the growth even in my blog. I have met so many wonderful people on the blogosphere that bring a different but necessary dimension to my way of thinking. These people have opened up my mind in ways that I cannot even begin to fathom and for that I remain eternally grateful. My only hope is that my blog continues to grow and that I continue to connect with people that are just as amazing.
2017 is coming to an end. This will be my last and 23rd blog post of the year. I’ve come across so many disappointments and setbacks. But so many good things happened and that I can’t complain too much about.
I grew up, a fact that I will be grateful for forever. And I hope that I continue to grow even further and appreciate more.
Everything that you go through I believe is preparing you for the greatness that God has planned for you. So if you’re like me and you’re not where you want to be in life, that’s okay. The future looks bright. New opportunities are calling. Life isn’t perfect but it is alright and if you’re still breathing then everything will be okay.
And that’s good enough for now.
“Perfer et obdura, dolor hic tibi proderit olim. (Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you).”